As many of you know I am very lucky to be running our life changing " Conscious Sexuality Experience Training " with the amazing EJ LOVE
Our training is for all women who wish to re-connect with the inner healing goddess within
Some women who did the last training went on to use it as form of income- BUT for others it was a life changing week of personal development that they have taken into their personal life.
This! This is how I'm meant to help men!" These are the words that clearly came into my mind during my first time receiving a tantric massage. There I was lying on the table lathered in oil receiving this intimate healing touch from a woman, and like a flashing neon sign this thought came to me. I was actually there for the purpose of my own sexual healing because I had become so disconnected from my body and I could hardly feel pleasure or experience orgasms anymore. I had been working as a private independent escort for 3 years where I was always focused on servicing men's pleasure without being aware of how I was often crossing my own body's boundaries. Sex had come to feel like work for me, even with my own partner. Eventually this took a toll on me and my body and I was experiencing numbness, disconnection and was often in my head just going through the motions and performance of sex rather than being in any kind of real deep pleasure. Deep down I knew that I had to find another way to offer this work otherwise I was going to keep damaging myself. I thought surely there had to be another way where I could offer sexuality work and fully honour my body. I was reflecting on my work as an escort and I really could see that what I provided the most for men was essentially a counselling service. There was actually a lot more talking than there was sex if I'm really honest! Men would fully open up and share their deepest desires and vulnerabilities, things they never felt they could even share with their best friends or partners. I became a safe space for men to open up without the fear of being judged, shut down or shamed. And I loved this aspect of my job. It was my favourite part. Before each session began, I had each man sit down on the bed or couch and ask them what they desired to experience in their time with me. This was their opportunity to open up and share their desires. They would mostly say things to me like, "I don't know, just some intimacy", or, "I love my wife, but there is no intimacy in our relationship," or on the odd occasion I would hear something like, "I haven't been touched in 15 years, I just want to be touched." Most men were absolutely starving for connection and they were looking for it through a sexual experience and intimate companionship. I felt great empathy and sometimes a sense of sadness when they opened up to me in this way knowing that they were struggling to get this need met in their own lives. There was a big part of me that knew I wanted to offer something deeper for these men, something that would impact them at their core and satisfy thei