As many of you know I am very lucky to be running our life changing " Conscious Sexuality Experience Training " with the amazing EJ LOVE
Our training is for all women who wish to re-connect with the inner healing goddess within
Some women who did the last training went on to use it as form of income- BUT for others it was a life changing week of personal development that they have taken into their personal life.
This! This is how I'm meant to help men!" These are the words that clearly came into my mind during my first time receiving a tantric massage. There I was lying on the table lathered in oil receiving this intimate healing touch from a woman, and like a flashing neon sign this thought came to me. I was actually there for the purpose of my own sexual healing because I had become so disconnected from my body and I could hardly feel pleasure or experience orgasms anymore. I had been working as a private independent escort for 3 years where I was always focused on servicing men's pleasure without being aware of how I was often crossing my own body's boundaries. Sex had come to feel like work for me, even with my own partner. Eventually this took a toll on me and my body and I was experiencing numbness, disconnection and was often in my head just going through the motions and performance of sex rather than being in any kind of real deep pleasure. Deep down I knew that I had to find another way to offer this work otherwise I was going to keep damaging myself. I thought surely there had to be another way where I could offer sexuality work and fully honour my body. I was reflecting on my work as an escort and I really could see that what I provided the most for men was essentially a counselling service. There was actually a lot more talking than there was sex if I'm really honest! Men would fully open up and share their deepest desires and vulnerabilities, things they never felt they could even share with their best friends or partners. I became a safe space for men to open up without the fear of being judged, shut down or shamed. And I loved this aspect of my job. It was my favourite part. Before each session began, I had each man sit down on the bed or couch and ask them what they desired to experience in their time with me. This was their opportunity to open up and share their desires. They would mostly say things to me like, "I don't know, just some intimacy", or, "I love my wife, but there is no intimacy in our relationship," or on the odd occasion I would hear something like, "I haven't been touched in 15 years, I just want to be touched." Most men were absolutely starving for connection and they were looking for it through a sexual experience and intimate companionship. I felt great empathy and sometimes a sense of sadness when they opened up to me in this way knowing that they were struggling to get this need met in their own lives. There was a big part of me that knew I wanted to offer something deeper for these men, something that would impact them at their core and satisfy their deeper hunger for love, connection and sexual expression, but I didn't know what exactly or where to even start. So when I was in the middle of that tantric massage it suddenly all became so clear! This was the way. This massage experience showed me how Tantra weaved spirituality and sexuality together and how it helped people to connect deeply to their bodies and their hearts. It was far beyond the physical expression and performance of sex. In my own experience of it, it took me deeper into myself in a way that I didn't even know existed and I wanted to be able to offer that same experience to my clients. It was so clear to me that I was meant to blend my spiritual healing work together with my sexuality work and create experiences for men that deepened them into intimacy with themselves and helped them become freer in their sexual expression. My service would now be a much deeper offering and at the same time I could see that I would be able to honour myself and my body. I was so excited for this new way of working with my clients and I immediately wanted to put it all into practice! I asked the woman who had given me my tantric massage if she would be willing to teach me and she agreed to teach me how to do a lingam massage. I learn best by experience so as soon as I had that first session with her I started practicing this on my escort clients who were all very open to receiving it! I then spent the next six months incorporating basic tantric practices such as eye gazing, breath, sound and conscious touch into my sessions. I was helping my clients to slow down, get out of their heads and become more present in their bodies so they could feel more pleasure during our time together. I still had a lot to learn though and I was committed to embodying this work so I invested most of the money I was making into as many Tantra and conscious sexuality trainings, retreats and courses as I could find! At every training I attended I had huge lightbulbs go off in my head and intuitively I could see exactly how I could develop these practices into rituals and sessions to meet the needs of my clients on a deeper level. I was essentially creating a whole series of my own unique rituals and practices that included everything from intimate touch rituals, to lingam worship, to sexual initiations, to yoni massage training. I probably developed over 20 different types of sessions that kept evolving and deepening with time and a lot of practice! In the sessions I would speak often to men about the importance of having a healthy intimate and sexual relationship with themselves first. I would teach them about boundaries and consent, how to honour a woman's body and how to know and ask for what they really want and desire. I would guide them into embodying archetypes that helped them access different aspects of themselves so they could feel more empowered and fully expressed in their sexuality. If they struggled with sexual dysfunctions I would take them on a sexual healing journey. When they were having struggles in having intimacy with their partner I would teach them the best way to support her and how to meet their own intimacy needs in a healthy way. When men now opened up to me and shared their vulnerabilities and desires, I was able to coach them on those very things and I would give them tools and practices to take home to continue to consciously self-pleasure and to deepen their intimacy with themselves and/or their partners. I witnessed many men having profound awakenings and transformations in my sessions. I saw them open their hearts, become more connected to their bodies and feel pleasure in new and deeper ways that they didn't even know was possible for them before! I held some men as they cried and completely fell apart and wept in my arms. These were often men who had never done any 'work' on themselves or had never allowed themselves to feel the depth of their emotions. What a gift it was for me to be able to hold space for this level of feeling. Soon enough most of my clients were now men who really were looking for sexual healing or who felt called to experience deeper intimacy or who wanted to learn how to pleasure their partner better. They came to learn, they came to heal, they came to grow and they came to be better men for themselves, their partners and families. They were coming specifically to me for that deeper experience, and they didn't need the physical act of sex to get it. I got to see men in a whole new light and I now wanted other women to see men in the way I got to see men. And I especially wanted other escorts to know that there was other ways they could work with men and to be able to offer them sexual healing too. That's when I began running my own trainings and retreats for women teaching them about men, intimacy and tantric practices. Over the next few years, I guided women all over Australia to work with men initiating them in a similar way. I also helped thousands of women to see men in a whole new light through doing my online courses, attending my workshops and even just from reading and watching my online videos, blogs and posts. Then I met an amazing woman called Anna Morrigan who had been working in the sex industry for almost 40 years. She saw me speak about my journey at an event and knew then that she had to work with me. She shared with me her vision to revolutionise the sex industry, the same vision I had back in 2016. To bring back the sacredness to sex and the power of healing through sex. We both knew that we were not here to do this alone. So we decided to come together and birth the: CONSCIOUS SEXUALITY EXPERIENCE A trauma-informed training for women to embody the Goddess and bring back the sacredness to sex to awaken, initiate and heal. This is our combined over 50 years of experience of working intimately with men in offering embodiment, tantric and sacred sexuality practices, sexual healing and BDSM. If any of this resonates for you or you feel the call then we invite you to apply to join our next training.
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